it has been a year since opinkcato stole one of my base without credit or permission and deviant told me the editing was enough that no decision could be made despite evidence from us both that she used it throwing out my faith in the system entirely. in that time i have removed all my bases, stopped sharing any new ones, left both of my base clubs and more-or-less stopped giving deviant the bulk of my art(because i feel it will get stolen if i post anything of quality) in that time very little has changed. given all of this i am not sure that my having mostly left the dolling community has made a difference to anyone but me and while i would like to think at least one or two people care that i am gone i cannot see it, traces are still as popular as ever but originals are making ground too, pixel dolls have gotten more diverse but the bulk of it is the same as when i joined the fray 5 years ago and while that is ok i am not sure how i personally feel. it is like being stuck in the ocean. sure there are changes and sometimes you can see them but it seems as if so much of it is unmoving, unaffected by time.... i don't know i just feel a little melancholy i suppose that maybe i made no difference to begin with and it's only after i have wasted away to nothing that i can see




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